The definition of vanity is, "to be excessively concerned about one's own appearance, qualities or achievements. So, let me just spit it out once and for all...I'm vain and I don't like it. Heck, my job is all about being concerned with people's appearances, BUT when things become "excessive" or I find myself thinking I'm not as beautiful or stylish if my hair isn't styled OR even worried about people's judgements of my style and talent if I'm not dressed to impressed every day, there's a problem. Granted, my style is a huge marketing tactic, but if I'm thinking terrible things in my mind simply because I'm having a bad hair day - I need a reality check STAT!
This past April, I came to this realization after leaving my blow dryer at our vacation home a couple hours away. Knowing I wouldn't be able to grab it for another month, I had a bit of a freak out moment. I quickly contemplated driving back for it the next day, realized that wouldn't work, then texted my hairstylist to see if she had an extra to borrow (she didn't) and then finally almost jumped in my car to spend $100 JUST SO I could have "perfect" hair for a month.
You may be thinking, "WOW! This girl is shallow, conceited..blah blah blah. However, I'm not blogging this to publicly embarrass myself. I'm sharing this because I realized I know a lot of people that won't venture out of the house without a full face of makeup, their hair coiffed perfectly or their shoes matching their outfit...This is NOT good people!
So, back to the story about the hair dryer...I did NOT go buy one. Instead I challenged myself and spent A MONTH with only air dried hair. This was hard for me, but in the moments of negative self talk I was able to challenge lies with the TRUTH - that my worth and value doesn't come from perfection or beauty! I believe my worth and value comes from God - my Creator - who says I'm beautifully and wonderfully made. You may not share the same religious views, but regardless, no man or woman should EVER find added value in textiles, face paint or aerosol cans! NONE! Zero! Zilch! Nada!
So, if you're reading this and finding yourself relating to my words, take something away from your routine and get uncomfortable. Purposely mismatch your socks for a week, stop using eye shadow for a month or don't blow dry your hair. Then replace your insecurities with truth.
It's okay to enjoy fashion and express your style through hair, makeup and clothing (duh!). Just don't find yourself thinking your Armani suit adds value to who you are.